So meet my friend Jang-Jang, I have known her for almost 6 years already. I get to know her better on our 4th year in high school. Smart, Beautiful, Loud, Firm , four simplest words that I could describe her. I choose the simplest because It would for sure take the whole blog to describe her, really, time-consuming. But one thing is for sure, she's one of a kind.
and she is in the hospital now, already two weeks, fighting for his will to walk again. He was involve in a vehicular accident causing the lower part bone of her left leg to broke. She was just in bed after the accident, enduring the anguish of the broken bone. She can't stand, she cant even bare to sit. Everyday is a fight for fear and pain, I can't even imagine how or why does she cried so hard every time the nurse inject something on her dextrose (not directly to his arm), and then later it was explained, it was a medicine injected to the dextrose so it would penetrate directly to her vein, nerve that is very painful, stinging, that for me, something that is unbearable. Every time I came to visit her, I don't want to go near her, of course I am an emotional brat, I can feel her, seriously. I feel like I am in pain also when I saw her crying like she had no choice but to stick out on whatever pain she had to bear : ( She even celebrated her birthday at the hospital. She celebrated her birthday with the antenna-like fixer (made of metal, steel, im not sure) that is place on her leg after the operation, She celebrated her birthday with hours of crying and unimaginable pain that cause by the cold weather, causing the fixer to conduct the coldness and that numbs her leg completely. She blew her birthday candles with tears. I was there, I heard her calling her mom for help, I saw her make a face of agony, I saw her faded smiles as she endures pain, I may have never wipe a tear for her but it really do breaks my heart. One thing is certain, she is stronger than she thinks.
Ging,
Don't worry about everything because as what I've said, you are in a perfect situation for a perfect reason. There is no such thing as giving up now, you have a family who unconditionally loving you, you have a mother who you never heard a single blame, a mother who never complain of whatever sacrifices she have to do just to make you comfortable. You have a father who wants to bear the pain for you. Your mother even told me "Palangga gyud kaayo si Jang2 saiyang papa". You have friends who tried so hard to make you forget the pain once in a while, friends who spare time to visit you in spite of the schedule, friends who are willing to put up a fight with the security guards just to stay longer, friends who still laugh as much as they can even if you are crying hard just to make you feel like everything will be alright. Do not underestimate your capacity to regain, your fast recovery after your operation wasn't unexpected at all, you are strong because you have family and friends that is better than medicine and dextrose, you have your family that is more effective than your fixer. YOU HAVE YOURSELF. Seek for what is in store for you, realize what is behind everything that is happening. Smile for everything that you have learned.
If God needs to break a bone, be it. A jang-jang has it all to crusade.
Jillian
